hisloveuponme

I'm wondering, wondering. Only God knows what's the best for me. =((

Bipolar syndrome is scary. I'm really scared. sighs
Kind of sad to hear some things you said
What should I do?

NO WAY am I going to explore, but you are. oh wells
Just the thought of it is so heart wrenching
What can I do?

Like I always say, with great expectation comes great disappointment
I am merely a human with limitations
What can I say?

There are things that you said that assure me
But sometimes those seems so far away
What can I hold on?

I'm thinking of you again, staring at my phone consistently hoping it will buzz
The silence is just so eerie
What should I do?

I'm missing you so much, wondering what you're doing
Having a battle within myself to call/msg or not to
What should I listen to?

as i look into your eyes
i see all the reasons why
my life's worth a thousand skies
you're the simplest love i've known
and the purest one i'll own
know you''ll never be alone

my baby
you are the reason i could fly
and cause of you i don't have to wonder why
baby you
there's no more just getting by
you're the reason i feel so alive

though these words i sing are true
they still fail to capture you
as mere words can only do
how do i explain that smile
and how it turns my world around
keeping my feet on the ground

oh, i will soothe you if you fall
i'll be right there if you call
you're my greatest love of all
and i feel so alive

what has become of me now? sighs. I-M-U!! =((

Disclaimer: Before reading the story, please note that it has got nothing to do with me and people that I know. Just happen to hear this story from a friend and decided to blog about it. Total randonmness!!

Recently, I've been hearing a story about X, Y and Z from a friend. X and Y knew each other for very long and are attached. Z came into the picture while X is overseas. Y developed feelings for Z but still decided to stay with X.

That's just a summary of the story. Haha. Decided not to be too explicit. After hearing the story I was GDI pissed off. What the hell does Y think she's doing. LIke seriously. To fulfill her needs for a guy beside her while X is away? Or the 'love' and 'happiness' that Z can bring her? In fact, looking at the long run, X can bring much happiness to Y. Maybe X would be better off without Y. Afterall when he comes back, he will be so much sought after. ((=

Oh wells. Other people's relationship. Thou shall not interfere but I seriously feel very unfair and unjustified for X. Working so hard overseas, being so hopeful that life would be so much better, together with Y but now face the uncertainty that things might change. WRONG!! Maybe things have already changed. Worst still, might discover the truth that Y has cheated on him.

are you going to lose it before you learn to cherish? -ponders-

If only I've a choice, I would want to go back to a year ago.sighs. I miss a lot of things that I did last year. And 'something' that was once so close to me but NOW an FOREVER WILL BE far away. It's been way too long yet I can't seem to let it go. Oh Daddy God, please help me in this area. I think I'll be able to be a better one than ******. Way much better. What has become of me? 

If Jesus Christ is for me, who can be against me? haha. Praise the Lord. No weapons formed against me shall prosper!! ((=

thank God for you. ((= you're the best!!